The Tears That Never Came

Pain is probably one of the most peculiar things I've encountered in my life. It can hurt you, kill you, teach you, make you feel better, or do absolutley nothing. But no matter what we tell our selves, pain is always in our hearts and around us. There's no getting rid of it. Whether it be physical or emotinal.
But what I find most intriguing about pain, is that it makes us stronger. Which is weird, because it hurts us, makes us cry, and makes us do idiotic things like cutting ourselves, hurting ourselves, or going absolutley crazy. But then the next time you face pain, you're stronger. Because you know the outcome, and what's going to happen after. You know that the hurt won't hurt as much in a while. And you won't hurt yourself or do silly things.
And the next time, when your heart has broken, you'll feel little pain.


And so, I'm thankful. Because my experiences with pain, got me through what SHOULD have been a hard time in my life.

But really, it was a time where the tears never came. I smiled, and thanked pain like an old friend.

Obsessions and Impressions

Sometimes, we find ourselves having a strong liking for something. A need, even. But those things-no matter how healthy they may seem, never are good for you. Because they leave an impression with those around you. And this, takes us back to one of the things I hate most. Judgement. If you read books instead of watch tv, you`re a nerd. Party all night, and you`re labled a whore, slut, e.t.c You may think keeping to yourself and staying away from everything is a good idea. But then there`s something `wrong` or `weird` about you.
So don`t be afriad of the things you love. Because no matter what you do to hide who you are. There`s always going to be a label on your head. And usually, it`s one we aren`t happy with.

But that`s life. So do whatever the fuck you want.

Because there`s no stopping judgement or labels.

Friends, But Not Quite

We all have friends.

Smart ones, stupid ones, pretty ones, e.t.c

But we share a special connection with a few of them. The one we tell everything to, have common interests with, and are forever loyal too. But what sucks is some of us don't have that friend. And sometimes, that's really frustrating. There are things we want to do, but have no one to do with them. And once your friends label you, it's like your stuck with what you are. At least in my case. I'm just saying. If you have that one special friend, or a few. Hold them tight, because they're really speical.

Haters and Associaters

The saying "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me," is such a joke. Words to most of us, hurt much more than physical assault. And then there are those people, who claim to be your friend and then talk shit about you with your haters just so they don't sound queer. True friends? My ass. There's haters, and their associaters. Unless you're lucky enough to have golden friends who always stick by you. And by always, I mean all the time whether you're there or not. Unfortunatley, I don't have one of those. Hopefully I will in high school.

The thing that really pisses me off though, is how shallow people can be. Who cares if someone is ugly, has acne, has big ears, a big nose, e.t.c I hate when people make fun of others, when they're not perfect either. Everyone is flawed, and that's what makes all of us beautiful things.

So to all of you who know what I'm talking about. It's time we told the haters, to fuck off. Because really, they're not perfect either.

And it's time to kiss those mofo associaters goodbye, because all they are is scared cowards.

The End of The Beginning

Once past a certain point of importance in life, one feels excited yet scared. As Nino Rota sang, a rose will bloom. Well now, it's time for me to bloom. I'm going to a school. This school has caused misfortune to many teenagers living on Earth. This school, is called High School. It's funny how the level of schooling before this is "elementary" when us children tend to be a bit more mature in our younger years. Well, in most cases anyways. Continuing on, I will miss certain people and am happy that I don't have to see some people. Lets face it, there's no way you're going to like everyone you meet. But what scares me, is the sick world that lives in high schools. Labels, cliques, whores, e.t.c. When what's most important is getting good grades, our paths are blocked by ...wait for it.... DRAMA! And so now, my greatest fear is;

Failure.